Note of Knot

Fret not

You shall not,

be tied in that knot.

It doesn't seem to me anymore

You'll be worth counting for

It's true I did open the door

Truth be told, I'm now glad than before

Too, I'm afraid it'll be a bore

Yet I predict it'll be a slight war

And the flame that was once a roar

Slowly it's gone by the water that you pour.

#AA2015

Something to Think

You know something?

Time can be stink and will sting

Disgusting when patience left and you're still waiting

Waiting for a thing that you called a link

But will there be one if this is how you're behaving?

At this point I sometimes feel glad for not loving

A verb which I guess neither do I nor you shall be using

Simply because we aren't ready to sing

The song we called Time, Giving and Taking.

#AA2015

*Yes, I do realize that it has been a long while. I really do.

A Quick One

I always do this

Whenever I have works to be done

I sidetrack a bit for some guilty bliss

And I ain't complaining as it brings me fun

Procrastination is always a loyal intrusion

A mind's fashion that's mismatched your true mission

An obtrusion of confusion leads to frustrations as you fail to solve the questions

It's funny as I can't figure out why would I have these wonders

It's annoying how they would easily strike this head as if they were thunders

Believe me, it's not something that is light to ponder

As it drags this heart to think, decide and consider

 It seems that I sometimes can't trust myself either

My alter ego tends to hide and hinder

Especially when things become a wee bit harder

Azrin Aidil, 2014 / #AA2014

*Saja mengada. Haha. Blogxygen-mode-konon! Pleasant day, peeps! :)

Not a Girl, not yet a Woman.

Thank Allah for His blessing.

Thank you, Ayah and Ibu.

I'm everything I am today because they love me.

Alhamdulillah.

Thanks to y'all too, awesome people!

:D

#feelsotua #b'day

Happy Puasa!

Esok puasa! Yay!

Happy fasting, everyone! :D

*Bye cendol.. Haha..

The Cendol's Enemy

'Mereka' berwarna-warni

Saling tak tumpah macam pelangi

Tak busuk dan tak wangi

Rupa pun tak-lah berseri

Entah

Mungkin saja mengaburi

Mata tertarik, tidak di hati

Otak mencongak berkali-kali

Patutkah 'mereka' diterima lagi?

Ah! Tekak kebas menjadi-jadi

Lidah kelu bagai dah lali

Entah

Apakan daya kalau begini

Tiada guna mengelak, berlari

Sakit badan tanggung sendiri

Telan saja 'mereka' berbiji

Mudah-mudahan pulih kembali

Bersamamu cendol di kemudian hari!

BIG HI, everyone! :)

It's been a long while since I last wrote my 'typical-konon-perasan-A.Samad Said' kind of poem. Haha. Reminds me of my previous poem/gurindam/sajak/pantun/orwhateveryouwannacallit. How I've retired from all these, it seems.. *sigh*

I hate ubat! Seriously. But I've no choice but to consume them for these past few days. Lost my voice yesterday. Kelakar je. Tak dengar langsung satu patah perkataan when I uttered. Ibu was like "Ah? Ah? Tak dengar kakak cakap apa? Ah? Apa dia?" when we talked over the phone. It was a very frustrating moment that made me cried all day. Gosh! Sucha crybaby, kan? Haish.. Perhaps, saki baki jerebu hari tu that's giving me all these demam, selsema, batuk-macam-apa-entah and nose bleeding. Haa hambik sekali doktor kasi ubat yang kalau dikira-kira, boleh agih-agih satu kampung. Lepas tu, siap cakap, "Haa.. ni mesti makan ais banyak sangat ni?" Eleh. Saja je doktor tu! Sengaja tak nak bagi makan cendol dan minum teh ais lah tu. Huh, lepas ni kita jangan berjumpa lagi! Eceh! *hentak-kaki-konon-mengade-perasan-innocent-macam-budak-kecik*

*Fine! Let me have those meds! :'(

The 'Gebu' Jerebu

Salam. Hello.

Anyone.

Haha.

Hopefully things are doing well, yeah? I mean, besides today's 'challenging' weather. Haiyo! I think I'm gonna need an oxygen tank, a huge one perhaps. My throat and my chest are killing me now. They seem to be clogged. My respiratory system isn't at its best state. Face masks are becoming my BFF now. Feel like a pro surgeon walking around. Haha. I wish I could pull off that 'look' with all these batuk and hingus happening around like nobody's business. Hope you guys aren't experiencing these things. Unlike me. :'(

Btw, in order to avoid ourselves from being 'fully conquered' by this terrible condition, yes the haze, let's not forget to drink lots and lots of water. Plain one okay, not some cendol or teh ais (macam 'orang' tu, ehem..). Put on a face mask when you're doing any outdoor activity. Ala, murah je, sekeping tak sampai pun seringgit. Alahai, beli cendol boleh, takkan face mask 'sechoe't' tu pun tak mau? Ewah!

Just a gentle reminder. For myself and you. And you. You, you over there and you. Haha. Take care people!

*It's my clogging nose that's making me blog after so maannyy years! Ceh!

Oh My..

(Above: Just my 2 cents photo. Haha.)

Oh my my my.. Goodness me! It has been ages, it seems! (*covering face)

Hey guys. How are things going on? Everything's good ey? :)

Again, I just can't believe the fact that I actually own a blog! And yes, it has been amazingly and wonderfully updated abandoned! Ish.

I've got to admit, I probably would've forgotten how to blog actually. The 'kepoh-chi-blogger' in me is gone. Like, really really gone! :(

Anyway, things are going fine here. Thank Allah for that. I'm venturing, trying and exploring loads of new stuffs everyday. Yet, old habits / practices can't just disappear within a day, right? I am still a proud cendol-ian, teh ais monster and what not. Y'know me, kan. Pfft.

Btw, are we (ManU) leading now? Hehe. Well, I dare not consider myself a devoted ManU fan anymore. Argh! Miss the good old days. I guess, my alter-ego (Ferguson) has retired sooner than I thought. Now, if you would ask me who Nemanja Vidic is, I might shake my head as a signal of 'What's that? A detergent's brand or something?' It's depressing, I know. Can this village have an Astro kuali or at least, a TV?! Aiyo.

Won't promise that I'll update you daily, dear Blogxygen but believe me, I'll try not to forget the fact that I have you, my blog! Haha. See you guys soon yeah! Hugs! ;)

It's OFFICIAL!

Hek eleh. Title post macam apa je. Plus with this 'smashing' pic, haish.. I'm drooling now! People may think that tuan punya blog just purchased it! Aahh.. Wish it was real, though. :P

Hey, anyway before I go any further, a big 'HI' and 'SALAM' to y'all. Wish you guys well yeah! (*Well.. I mean, if there was somebody 'sesat' here for real-lah, kan. Hehe.) Fuh.. Lama gila kot tak jenguk blog sendiri. Kalau dah tuan punya blog pun tak visit blog sendiri, apatah lagi orang lain, right? Huhu. Been busy with loads of stuff and what not. Been here and there. Done this and that. Well, let's just say that I'm too lazy to pour 'em all here, ey? I think I should just retire. Retiring as a blogger of my own abandoned blog. Argh.. I think I already did. Somehow. =/

Well, I must say that leading life as a student may not be as simple as gulping down a big bowl of cendol. (*Well, at least eating a HUGE bowl is an easy task for me, though. Ceh.) Away from home. Away from your best bed and pillows. Away from the couch that has always been a victim of 'violence' whenever I watch my ManU games. Away from ibu's epic cooking. Away from teh ais mamak favorite. Gosh! The 'away-from-list' just won't end, wouldn't it?

But, how or when will you start missing home and all these things when you're not away from any of them, kan? Cewah cewah cewah.. Konon nak try jadi the-positive-Oprah. Hmm, that's what I told myself-lah, just to feel better. At least. For a tiny bit. Ehem. :|

Anyway, a lovely cousin sister of mine just got married. Aaww.. May happiness be with them, always. And yes, we all went to Johor for the kenduri. Best gila. Was in-charge for the 'bunga pahar' or some people call it as 'bunga telur'. Ceh, saja I nak show-off konon tau buat bunga telur. Hehe. Weddings are fun, I think. I mean, when it comes to gathering with family, relatives part-lah! Jangan nak gatal, Azrin! Betul! Pergi wedding memang fun. Sebab apa? Hey.. Dapat makan nasi minyak, nasi beriani, nasi color2, eh.. Yelah, sebab color dia bukan putih dan orang tak panggil tu nasi putih. Ceh. Lepas tu dapat makan tapai manis. Makan cake pengantin walaupun tak makan style suap-menyuap tu. Makan lauk itu. Makan lauk ini. Yes, perhaps you guys may think, "Weh, dari tadi makan, makan, makan. Takde kerja lain ke?" (*Ala let's just admit, kak, bang, adik, makcik, pakcik semua.. 'MAKAN' is one of the main purposes when you're at a wedding tau. Betul. Ehem.. According to my law-lah. Haha.) Yang paling best, bila kita dapat bunga telur banyak2, sebab? Sebab, bila kita balik rumah, kita kena straight masuk dapur, lepas tu kita ambik kicap, dan tuang kat telur rebus yang dapat tadi tu, haa, lepas tu.. apalagi! Goodness me! I can't believe I just taught you guys such lesson! Tak senonoh betul. Don't try this at other people's home, try at your own, kay. Hehe. :p

Opsy.. Looks like I've been 'nagging' for hours now. Time to get going. Will see you guys when I wake up at the 'correct' side of the bed, like I did this morning, which particularly or magically made me visit my own blog. Ish ish ish..

Hope all is well. Take care, people! :)

A date? Me? Pfft..

Yeah.. I know, the post's title scares me too, guys! Haha. What is she thinking? A date? Gosh! I couldn't help myself laughing in front of my lappy while typing this. Really. A super duper random stuff that popped up from the head this late evening, a date. (*Ketuk kepala. Ketuk kepala.) It was so sudden and I've gotta admit that I was in my 'lala-jiwang-bawang-mode' for a minute while thinking about it! Waaaaa! Sangkut dagu atas meja, senyum lebar2 sampai ke telinga, otak kosong melayang-layang? Naaaaahhh! Tak-lah jadi sampai level pro macam tu kot. (*Hah! What a relief.)

It was just a slight visual in my brain, after I saw an old couple eating together. The Chinese atok in his white pagoda singlet and his gorgeous wife with a pair of worn out selipar jepon, sat together and chatted while waiting for their orders to arrive. When the meals had been served, the atok took his wife's plate closer to him and started to pinch the roti canai, bit by bit. Guess what he did later on? Special service of cooling off the roti canai pieces! Tiup dan tiup kepingan2 roti canai panas yang telah disiat tadi, then only he pushed the plate to his wife, who waited patiently with a smile on her face. She touched his right hand as an initial of 'thank you'. Believe me, that was such a beautiful scene to behold. Just, beautiful. Realizing that I stared at them for too long, (*Yeah, I know it's rude to stare, but I couldn't help myself!) I continued sipping my teh ais which was no longer can be considered as 'heaven' as I always claimed sebab buih dan ais dia dah habis cair-bair! "Anei!" And as my little sis urged me to finish up my food faster, I took a glance at the couple, again. They enjoyed what's on the table and called one of the 'anei(s)' for a bill. He paid the anei and again, my eyes were glued at the couple. The nenek naturally wiped off his beloved husband's 'curry-stained' chin with her handkerchief. He smiled for the hundredth time! They started to leave the table, walked slowly and held each others' hands tightly. Aaawww... :')

On my way home, I kept thinking about the couple. Even now I'm thinking about them. Such a pure love and the way they expressed it, PRICELESS! To some, that may be just a normal, mere reaction. But for me, that tiny little expression worth more than a candlelight dinner at a 5-star hotel or anything. Simple yet meaningful. Grow old together with your loved ones. Gosh! (*I didn't know I can be this jiwang-bawang! Help!)


Hence, the picture above. HAHAHAHA! Can't believe myself! Yeah, you guys got it right. I perasan myself as the girl in the pic. (*Waa! I AM LOONY!) Couldn't imagine what will the guy look like, but that does not matter to me now. Just with some heart moving moments, gentle postures, silly jokes but not too silly, little bit of surprise and this and that (*your personalized plans-lah. Hehe.) But, I personally feel that, respect is what really matters. Respect everyone especially your parents, family, friends and partner. Oh yeah, not to forget, respect our own selves first, then the rest will flow naturally. Euw, Azrin! Are you a part-time love doctor now? This is so not myself. I'm blaming the teh ais tak sedap, kurang sejuk I had just now! Haha!

*Imagining myself and a guy in his best tux, sitting on a bench under a shady tree, enjoying our 3rd bowl of cendol extra kacang! Hahaha! Now, that sounds like a nice kind of date, though. Hehe. (*Ketuk kepala. Ketuk kepala.) So, how's your kind of date, guys? May Allah bless us all. ;)

Live High

It's 2012 already and sheesh, I haven't blogged since last August 2011? Dayum! I AM SO SO SO LAST YEAR! Haish.. Pemalas gila tuan punya blog. Anyway, I'm hoping that this brand new year of 2012 will be a great one for all of us, yeah? May Allah bless this fresh 'chapter' of our lives and grant us with good health, good weather, good food, good friends and (*when you're listing for good things to be asked to God, the list just won't end!) Heh. Well, let's just put it this way, may ALL is WELL and (*cough) let's have a (more) 'pocketful' this year, people! Haha! Hugs!

My all time favorite, Jason Mraz's 'Live High'.. Dedicated to you guys! :)

I try to picture a girl
Through a looking glass
See her as a carbon atom
See her eyes and stare back at them
See that girl
As her own new world
Though a home is on the surface, she is still a universe

Glory God, oh God is peeking through the blinds
Are we all here standing naked
Taking guesses at the actual date and time
Oh my, justifying reasons why
Is an absolutely insane resolution to live by

Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously
Taking it easy
Live high, live mighty
Live righteously

Try to picture the man
To always have an open hand
See him as a giving tree
See him as matter
Matter fact he's not a beast
No not the devil either
Always a good deed doer
And it's laughter that we're making after all

The call of the wild is still an ordination why
And the order of the primates
All our politics are too late
Oh my, the congregation in my mind
Is this assembly singing gratitude
Practicing their loving for you

Just take it easy
And celebrate the malleable reality
Nothing is ever as it seems
This life is but a dream

Kadang-kadang?

Before I start my rant any further.. HAPPY FASTING, y'all! Heh.. :)

As usual, when it comes to blogging, I just can't afford to resist myself from rambling without any particular reasons. Hah. Bila otak dah terlebih 'function', you'll tend to think about so many things. Believe me. I've been experiencing this all the time, people! Haha. Banyak benda sampai kadang2 tu terasa macam urat2 saraf dan segala neuron otak apakejadah tu semua macam bersimpul-simpul, berbelit-belit. (*Ceh! Hiperbola.)

Have you ever wondered why are you doing things that you're currently doing now? Reasons why and how it all started? Were there any factors that influence you to get involved in those things? Adakah kita buat semua ni disebabkan, "Oh, parents saya yang suruh saya buat macam tu." atau "Ramai kawan saya yang buat mende-alah ni so, saya pun ikut-lah diorang." atau "Dah memang minat saya dari kecik nak jadi macam tu." atau "Eh, hari tu saya tengok orang tu buat kerja macam tu kat tv, nampak macam cool habis." Oh, well.. I'm pretty sure that there'll be dozens of these kind of reasons cum questions popped out. However, in my case, I'd like to compile them all by having the thought we could be everything, anything that we want. Kan? (*Ceh.. Cliche kot, mak cik.)

Kadang-kadang tu ada jugak timbul negative thoughts yang bukan main sikit punya banyak. Berlambak-lambak. As usual the main function of pessimism is to trick your mind, body and soul. Yes, indeed. It is always easier said than done. Betul. Tak nafikan. Bercakap memang senang, cuba buat tengok. Baru tau susah tak susah. However, I don't think it's a sin to use your imaginations in order to figure things out. Well, as long as they're logical-lah, kan.

For examples, when I was a kid, I wanted to be a doctor, an engineer, an architect, a teacher, and other great occupations. You name it. Semua nak sapu. Tak mau kalah. Haha. Jawapan2 biasa kanak2 Ribena bila cikgu darjah dan sedara-mara bila pergi raya tanya.. "Bila dah besar ni nak jadi apa?" Err..

Tapi kadang2 terfikir jugak nak jadi bomba sebab ingat senang main simbah2 air bila ada api. Kadang2 teringin nak jadi tukang buat roti canai sebab bila melopong-lopong tengok anei2 tebar roti melambung-lambung, melayang-layang. Pergh. Terror kot! Kadang2 teringin nak jadi model, konon ingat kerja senang asyik jalan (catwalk) pakai high heels, make-up and also we get to wear those designer clothes. Kadang2 tu perasan pulak nak jadi penyanyi konon bajet suara sedap sangat, merdu habis bak buluh perindu sebab selalu melalak-lalak kat dalam bilik air sampai 2 jam pun belum tentu keluar lagi. Kadang2 bila tengok Sailormoon kat tv haa mula-lah nak ambik towel buat skirt siap tocang dua kat kepala, cita-cita nak jadi sailormoon penyelamat dunia guna kuasa bulan. Kadang2 gatal pulak tukar ambition nak jadi power ranger, kira nampak cool gila-lah bila hari2 hentam pakai baju color pink, perasan boleh jadi pink ranger. Haish! Semua kot nak jadi!

Typical solutions, ey? Jawapan standard kanak2 Ribena. And I used to be that kind of kid. Immature. Well.. I guess I still am now. Haha. Well.. Let's go straight to the point, shall we?

Bila kita dah semakin dewasa, dah berpangkat 'kakak2-abang2-makcik2-pakcik2', matang dan level 'ketuabangka-an' semakin tinggi, I think that we should be grateful. Grateful in a sense that we're now able to think wisely on what's best for ourselves and also for other people around us, loved ones especially. Yes, for sure all sorts of emotions, attitudes and our ways of thinking about any particular thing might be different from one another. Never you mind that. We all have our stands. Jadi-lah apa saja, siapa saja asalkan those things that we're planning to do are positive + logical to be executed.

Teringin nak jadi bomba masa kecik tapi bila dah besar hajat tak berapa nak sampai? Boleh je kot tolong padam-kan api lilin bila sesi blackout kat rumah dah habis. Kalau bomba yang real kat luar tu berani menangkap segala binatang species macam ular tu semua, why not kita jadi bomba dalam rumah? Tolong tangkap / hapuskan lipas2 jahat yang datang mengganggu si kakak (ehem2..) Nak jadi doctor masa kecik2, tapi bila dah besar tak kesampaian sebab markah Biology cukup2 makan je waktu kat sekolah dulu. Boleh je jadi doctor sekarang, kat rumah misalnya bila ibu atau ayah atau adik ke abang ke tak sihat, haa.. Apalagi, pergi tolong ambilkan panadol dan tampalkan koyok. Nak jadi penebar roti canai yang terror bab melambung-lambungkan roti ke udara? Boleh je kot. Pergi sental baju ke kain batik / pelekat dalam bilik air. Haa, nak lambung tinggi mana pun boleh. Berangan nak jadi sailormoon atau power ranger masa kecik2 tapi bila dah besar, confirm takkan jadi? Boleh kot! Siapa kata tak boleh? Be a sailormoon or a power ranger when needed to the people around us. Nak guna kuasa bulan? Kuasa matahari? Guna-lah kuasa apakejadah yang patut. And apply those 'kuasa' towards the house-chores yang confirm berlambak-lambak. For examples like, vakum karpet ke, basuh piok2, kuali2 ke, tolong pasang langsir ke (dah nak dekat raya ni, kan?) and many others. Bukan superheroes suka tolong orang yang memerlukan ke? Kira tolong-lah tu, kan?

To be short, (*Ceh.. After all the paragraphs yang berjela tadi, baru nak tulis "To be short..?") Hah! I truly think that we can be anything that we want. All of the great ambitions that we dreamed of when we were a kid. It's just that, those ambitions may not turn out to be that exact, and might be slightly different than what we used to have in mind. They may come in an unpredictable way but for sure, when it comes to their objectives or points of doing it, we're kinda like applying the same force yet momentum. (*Pergh.. Teringat kat subject Physics kot. Haha!) At the end of the day, we'll realize that it's all about how dedicated are we, how much effort that we put in and how consistent are we in order to achieve those things.

I ain't sure why would I ramble something about this, this time. Well, I guess I'm pretty loony at this late hour and perhaps you might think that "Hah, budak Azrin ni tengah meracau-racau ke apa ni?" Yeah, seriously, I'm thinking the same here. Haha. I don't know. I woke up this morning, (right after sahur) and this thingy thing just appeared in my head. Must be some kind of a wake-up call for me. Bulan baik, hari baik and I just thought that why not I share this 'ntah-pape' thought of mind instead of my typical 'teh-ais + cendol + ManU' posts. Haha. Ambik yang baik, buang yang mana tak baik, tak salah, kan?

"TO INFINITY AND BEYOND?"

G'day, people! :)

I Ask Myself Today

I've loads of things in my head right now. Loads.

I ask myself today.
Is it okay to be a 'crybaby' at this age?
Will I forever be one, in this bricked 'cage'?
Why can't I just digest the reality and turn over a new page?
Trying to take a firm grip of the life's image.
Sure thing, there'll be a disadvantage.
Having enough strength to manage?
Perhaps, it's just the temporary brain leakage?
A typical rage from the average.
Need to find a bandage.
P/s : "So, heart. Got the message?"

A Matter of Potter (13 / 7 / 2)

I had a day which was coincidentally full of numbers like 13, 7, 2. I can't seem to know why but I guess, when it comes to Potter's matter, magic happens. Haha. Ces. Astaghafirullahalazim. I sound ridiculous, I know. Anyway, I went to MidValley and was the 1st ever in line to purchase HP7 part 2 tickets. I came 1 hour earlier, even earlier than the GSC's staffs themselves! Haha. While waiting for those counters to open, I took out my Deathly Hallows (which I prefer to call it, Potter's-buku-gemuk) and re-read the book. After 1 hour of standing, the counters were finally opened and people rushed for the tickets. Well, that included me, though. Went to counter number 7 to purchase mine and coincidentally there was only one seat left in the H row, seat number 13. Just celebrated my b'day, last 13 / 7 (two days ago) and I pretty much think that the seat that was being selected earlier, was purchased at counter 7, would have some sort of ' co-incidents' with the birthdate, eh? Yeah, indeed. I sounded gila lagi. Haha. Anyway, on to the next 'kebetulan' that I encountered which somehow did pertain to the numbers of 13, 7 and 2. Just so you guys know that HP7 part 2 was being released officially today (14th July 2011). An awesome finale, I must say. Unfortunately, I only had a chance to watch this last sequel twice. InsyaAllah, I'll multiply the figures soon. Heh. Right after I finished watching the first one which ended at 2.00 pm, I waited for my second time of meeting Mr. Potter, again. This time, I got seat number 2. Another 'sweet coincident' for the 2nd time of watching HP7 part 2, sitting on seat number 2! Finished with the movie, I decided to go home. Had to take a cab-lah pulak. Haha. And please have a guess on how much did the cab fare cost me? It was RM7.00! Another 7 appeared, huh! Haish.

Well, I guess these were all no biggies. Perhaps, it's one of the days that I'm 'fortunate' enough to face. A day which 'contains' a series of numbers as identical as my birth date and also my 'all-time-interest', HARRY POTTER! It's kinda sad that this is the last sequel, the very last one, of an epic, super epic tale of all time! I love you, HP! :'D

Old Already..

13th July 2011. Another year has passed and she is, officially one year older now. Thank Allah for the opportunity given, to have me still standing in this earth. And I personally can't breath easy without having family and friends around me. No doubt, they ARE my oxygen. Happy birthday ME! Hope all is well, InsyaAllah.. :)

Aaawww.. That Old Header!

That's my old Blogxygen's header. Wonder why would I repost it this time! Haha.. I guess, it makes me realize how free I was back then. Doing all this kind of stuff. Ramblings. Being a 'kepohci'. ManU game reviews. Sarcasms for Berbatov. Stories of teh ais. Cendol's epic exaggeration. Hah! I so need the charm of an ultimate 'kepohci' back! Ugh! :/

April's Gone and May's On!

Hi hi hi hi hi, you guys!

Oh my dear Blogxygen. Been abandoned, ey? I didn't quite have the time to even update once last month! Gosh! Busy busy me. Haha. Exams, assignments and stuff. Phew.. Kepala hampir bocor-lah jugak. I miss updating my Blogxygen! So bad! Even the cousin (*I know you're grinning in front of the screen now, Chiko! Haha!) and he's like.. "Azrin! Update your blog." And I'm like.. "Yes, I will. Later." And my 'later' hmm.. Sampai ke sudah! Tengok! April dah lepas! Ces! Kata je nak update bloggie at least for once a month! Even game ManU pun tak tengok, asyik miss je. Selalu-nya sampai tertumpah-tumpah Ribena kat atas karpet time tengok Vidic, tapi laa ni.. Bukan kata nak tumpah-kan Ribena kat atas karpet je, nak bancuh Ribena pun tak sempat! Argh! So much of things in my head, needed to be 'poured' here. Wish I had those free times (again) like I used to have last time! Hmm.. :'/

Anyway, I guess I could take a deep breath (for now) as the exam just lasted few days ago. Yay! Haha.. Tapi tak boleh nak hoo-haa sangat. Waiting for the result can make me sick somehow. Fuh! Hopefully, all is well. And and and and.. I owe myself a lot of movies, cendols, teh ais, Vidic's moments, YouTube(ing), my guitars and the BOOKS! Yaaahhh.. Cuti sem ni, InsyaAllah, semua 'hutang' itu bakal dilangsai-kan. Hehe.. Thanks also to Miss Hajar and MamaJnJ for the blog visits, comments on fb and tweets. Those are like one of the 'energy-sources' I receive, each time I log in. Oh yeah, make sure you guys are having great days too! Much love from the lazy blogger, yet an epic cendol + teh ais MONSTER! ;)

March's 1st Post!

Hi all! How're you guys doing?

I've realized that I'm updating this 'lau yah' blog once a month. Fuh.. Standard dah kot level kemalasan tu. Dah tak boleh nak tolong dah. Sebulan sekali? Tengok sikit kat archive 2011 tu haa.. Mak ai.. Confirm, skil membebebebebebebebel si tuan punya blog dah makin nipis. Eceh.. Haha..

I think I've lost my (*worthy charm) of being 'perasan-konon-jadi-bola-punya-commentator'. Haha.. Yeah, seriously guys, I miss the 'Ferguson-ish' sense in me. Kalau dulu2, bila habis je tengok game ManU versus 'team-sipolan2', I'll straight away run my fingers on the keyboard, typing those of my cheesy type of game previews. And now, I wish I could have the time to even, WATCH MY MAN UTD GAMES WITHOUT SNORING IN THE SOFA DURING THE 2nd HALF! See.. How 'pathetic' I'm becoming!

*But sometimes, I wonder why would other people argue with me (particularly on my fb wall) whenever ManU loses any game. Seriously, it annoys me sometimes. For example, the game we had with 'Liverfool' wasn't really a good one though. And there was one fella came and wrote on my fb wall, why did ManU players played like THAT! Letting the rivals to clog in 3 goals while Nani cried on the field plus, my 'manja' Nemanja Vidic was being sent off! The fella kept questioning ME about why would such things happened to my team! He was also mumbling about Fergie would've used a better tactical plan and blablabla. And I was like.. "WHAT?!" Apa, dia ingat si Azrin tu bini Fergie ke apa? Tak pun, assistant coach? Referee? Eee.. It doesn't make any sense, right. For me, kalah means kalah. Menang is menang. At the end of the season, we'll see who'll grab the cup. Kan? Ini tak.. He was saying about the other team played for the pride-lah, ManU played just for the sake of getting the cup-lah. Ey! Rimas mak cik, nak.. Haha.. Yeah, some people can be thaaaat fanatic, huh? Se-fanatic2 si Azrin tu pun tang part Vidic je kot. Hahaha..

Phew.. I think that'll be enough. Blogging about football always makes me 'wreck less'. In a way.. Haha.. Wish you guys a 'Happy March' yeah! *hugs!

The World We Live In

Hi all.. :)

It's been quite a while since the last post, huh? February is going to leave us soon. And March will approach next. As time passes by, loadsa things happen. Those things that tend to make you feel good and bad. Sometimes, it is sad to think that whatever you have put into to help or make others feel better, they just won't appreciate the favours you've given. It's sad to think that they don't digest the positive thoughts and intentions that you've got for them. Really frustrating, it is. And at the end of the day, any blame or regret, will be ultimately yours. Is the idea of helping others, reflects the bad side out of you anyway?

(*Bila dah besar2 ni, banyak benda nak kena fikir, nak kena timbang, nak kena kira dan 'apa-kejadah' punya nak kena. Life isn't always sweet. Even with too much of sweetness, it'll form a diabetic out of you, kan? Haha. Being an adult is easy but being a wise adult, pheww.. It's a lot tougher that it seems, dey. Be bold, heart + soul. Please send this 'adult' some supports, strength and love, Ya Allah!)

Miss teh ais and cendol.. A lot! :'(

Friends = Stars

Howdy everyone! How's thing going on so far, mate? It's been a while since the last rant, kan? Well.. As for myself and I, the first month of 2011, so far has given me both easy and difficult times to be endured. It is about life we're talking about, right? There ain't happiness laying in front of you for 24/7, kan? When hard times emerge, we often feel and assume that life isn't fair. Indeed, it is. Sometimes. Typical way of thinking, I know. And I had mine once I heard about one of my best friends was recently diagnosed with a total chronic disease. Cancer. It was very very very hard for me to accept the shocking news, really. Even the other girlfriends of mine too.

And this person whom I called Yana, was and is an awesome girl. Soft-spoken with her Kedah accent which I always make fun of every time she says to me, "Azrin, awaitnya hang makan banyak sangat? Sat gi kembong perut tu baru hang tau!" Haha.. Bila waktu subjek seni (form 1) Yana-lah jadi tukang supplier berus lukisan, Buncho dan apa kejadah semua. Tengah2 lukis, dia suka je cakap ayat ni berulang-ulang kali.. "Jangan lupa. Kita mesti kena pandai bermain dengan warna!" Last2, Fara, Athirah, Bulat and myself akan bantai gelak sampai habis kelas seni. She's talented and very creative. Even time buat nota subjek agama pun dia siap buat warna-warni. 'Ustazah Rozita's favourite student', kata Bulat. Haha.. Kalau nak flasback balik time sekolah dulu, serius sampai esok pun belum tentu habis. To be short, she's one of the most wonderful persons I've ever met in my life.

Knowing the fact that she is now battling with the disease, makes me feel so sad. Speechless. What more can I do as a friend? Often, I tend to feel that I ain't a good friend to her especially in this such situation. Deep down inside, I reluctant to be the kind of friend who's around only during the fun period. I pray to Allah each second not to turn me into one of that 'species'! I love all of my friends. A lot. More than I can imagine, I think. They're as important as my own family. And as for her, I pray to Allah that she'll be cured from the disease and mostly, be strong to face this one major life challenge, all the time. I may not have the chance to be by her side everyday, but I know that I can afford to lend her my strength, the love of friendship, my prayers or anything, anything which a good friend like herself, worth to receive. Semoga Allah swt memberkati kehidupan kita semua. Amin..