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Life can be so sad and scary

Losing all its goodness, being less merry

Everything that's around seems very weary

Facts turn ugly and lies turn gory

People often worry

Shedding tears of no joy and fury

In hopes we'd all be free

Like the wind that blows those trees.

#AA2016

*Kononlah new piece. Haha. 🙈

A Mere Comeback?

Above: This was taken during my last day of enjoying Auntie's legendary cendol and ais kepal. And no. That's not the Auntie Cendol. This random 'ah so' was just trying to cross the road. I like her 'payung' though. Heh.

Hi all. It has been a while, yeah? Yes. Been saying that a lot. Pardon the laziness, please. I ain't trying to say that this poor blog would've gotten her 'tuan' back in business or whatsoever but yeah, the second thought does appear constantly for the last couple of weeks. Now that I've finished my role of being a nerd who used to be working behind the desk, attempting to 'swallow' those piled notes, assignments, projects, debates, presentations and you-name-it, I'm grateful to be home at last. Grateful to be home and having all the time I need to procrastinate, goyang-kaki, tidur-sampai-tengahari-buta-tapi-kena-marah-lepas-tu, meeting-uncles-and-aunts-with-their-fav-question-"DAH DAPAT KERJA DAH?" and yada-yada. Of course, when home's mentioned, it simply means that the anei teh ais would be receiving my consistent visits (hey, it's not like what you're thinking! Haip!) but one fact that saddens me is that I'm away from the Auntie Cendol's cendol and ais kepal that I love so very much! Noooooooo!

Oh well, many things had occurred last year. Both nice and not-so-nice things. I shed not only sweats but bloods and tears in order to get some things done. Fuyoh, konon nak nampak macam dramatic sikit. Haha. Well for sure, people come and go as you get to know them. It's pretty fascinating for some meetings to take place in times that you don't really expect and you're kinda taken aback with it. And to make things even worse, you're not accustomed to the proper ways of facing these occurrences. Susah kan, jadi adults? Well, consent ones of course. I guess, when people suggest you to just go with the flow, it sounds a lot more simpler than the real execution. Haish. Why oh why do we need to grow up?

Time flies. It does. Rapidly. No doubt. But, the question is, am I fit enough to play a role of a more mature version of me in this current vast, expensive and cruel timeline? Even when I'm a famous whiner, proud crybaby and 'budak-mengade-tahap-olimpik'? Can I handle it? Well, a list of questions for me and only me to ponder.

May all is well, InsyaAllah.

Sheesh, I don't mean to write this long at first, though. Sorry. But I wrote this lil' poem back in 2013 and hope y'all can relate to it, in a way. Till next time and good day, buddies! ;)

Fate

It's late, but never too late
Be it a bowl or a plate
We can all be mates
Go on those dates
Break some rules and some gates
Some may join the fun and do not hate
T'is a joy you could not rate
And you know it by the name of fate.

#AA2013

Note of Knot

Fret not

You shall not,

be tied in that knot.

It doesn't seem to me anymore

You'll be worth counting for

It's true I did open the door

Truth be told, I'm now glad than before

Too, I'm afraid it'll be a bore

Yet I predict it'll be a slight war

And the flame that was once a roar

Slowly it's gone by the water that you pour.

#AA2015

Something to Think

You know something?

Time can be stink and will sting

Disgusting when patience left and you're still waiting

Waiting for a thing that you called a link

But will there be one if this is how you're behaving?

At this point I sometimes feel glad for not loving

A verb which I guess neither do I nor you shall be using

Simply because we aren't ready to sing

The song we called Time, Giving and Taking.

#AA2015

*Yes, I do realize that it has been a long while. I really do.

Buaya

A buaya I was called today
Laughed and choked upon an 'okay'
As said it was a joke by the way
Repetitions aren't encouraged they might say
Well pretty much it'll be around and not to decay
Oh yes, that's the price to pay
But fret not as it's kinda fun to play
Being a buaya if I may
It's not a task one would do everyday
Why not give it a try anyway?

A lousy, rusty poem of Buaya.
Sincerely,
Buaya.

:p

(P/S: You know who you are. Haha. I'm joking too!)

A Quick One

I always do this

Whenever I have works to be done

I sidetrack a bit for some guilty bliss

And I ain't complaining as it brings me fun

Procrastination is always a loyal intrusion

A mind's fashion that's mismatched your true mission

An obtrusion of confusion leads to frustrations as you fail to solve the questions

It's funny as I can't figure out why would I have these wonders

It's annoying how they would easily strike this head as if they were thunders

Believe me, it's not something that is light to ponder

As it drags this heart to think, decide and consider

 It seems that I sometimes can't trust myself either

My alter ego tends to hide and hinder

Especially when things become a wee bit harder

Azrin Aidil, 2014 / #AA2014

*Saja mengada. Haha. Blogxygen-mode-konon! Pleasant day, peeps! :)

*Singgah lap habuk sikit*

Oh! Only Allah knows.. I have got many numerous, uncountable things to be shared here.

Seriously.

In fact, I didn't even know how to log in to my poor lil' bloggie here just a while ago!

Thanks to *Forgot-your-password?* thingy, I managed it finally. Hah!

My first shoutout ever in 2014?

I trust you, Giggs! We all do!

Despicable me..

I just can't help myself from doing the 'not-supposed-to-do' kind of things.
I can't refrain myself from carrying them on, even if  they weren't up to one's liking.

I sometimes tend to forget on what to think.

It seems to me that the brain reprimands his own friend named 'Feelings'.

And without fail, the idea of failing never fails to decline the failure from coming.
The usual, typical mindset which results of static cling.

I guess with these ignorance, pessimism 'qualities' in me, I'd be a champion if there's a contest like 'Who Wants to Be a bedebah (lousy) Human Being?'
And the rewards will be sins worth a million and a 'die-mond' that blings.

It is never an easy task to bring the words into actions as if like you were singing.
And it is never a good song to be sung when you know that the lyrics are lying.

Yes, it is wonderful to be treated and pampered as a Queen or a King.
And yes, it is wonderfool to stay astray while you're busy daydreaming.

I too, tend to forget how this glorious life is functioning.
More like in denial, playing pretend is the new game trending.

Perhaps, time is the culprit that turns this self into being oblivious and less caring.
But why put the blame on others when the bell itself doesn't ring a ring?

Everyday, in every hour and second I'm slacking.
But will there be a chance for this slacker to stop from breaking?
For she isn't as strong as she thought she could be in this life that's risk taking.
And to You, Allah, I'm wishing.
Please remind this poor mind of mine to always mind the fact that You, O'Allah, should always be in my mind and may all the good virtues to be forever lasting.

Amin.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha, mates! :')

Be Thankful for What We Have..

Hi everyone. :)

Hope your puasa routine is doing good, yeah?

Lately, I've been busy with my final year project. Loads of work, you see. Haish.. Dugaan dugaan..

Raya is just around the corner, kan? (*And same goes with your finals, Azrin! Ah!) Anyway, I just saw this iklan raya from Petronas, and as usual, each year during puasa and raya months, Petronas has never failed us. Their tremendous ad or this time they call it as a 'webfilm' portrays a sense of gratefulness.

 

It makes me miss my Ibu even more. Sob2. Let's not forget to be thankful for the things that we have now, people. The smallest thing in the world could mean everything to us. Thank Allah for that.

 

I miss my family!!!!!! :'(

*Watch this video! You won't regret it! :')

Not a Girl, not yet a Woman.

Thank Allah for His blessing.

Thank you, Ayah and Ibu.

I'm everything I am today because they love me.

Alhamdulillah.

Thanks to y'all too, awesome people!

:D

#feelsotua #b'day

Alamak, ais kepal!

Hi. How's your puasa today, people? Cewah.. Don't tell me that you guys literally buy all those yummy stuff kat bazar ramadhan? Oh well.. I do understand your position. It's the first day of puasa, so yeah.. With the murtabak, kuih segala kuih, air macam2 color tu semua. Haih, I feel you. I feel you. Haha.

As for me, I think today was kinda okay. Cuaca kat sini pun not that bad. It' just that I haven't really got a chance to 'attack' this lil' town's bazar ramadhan. No yet. Soon, I guess. Berbuka dengan bubur McD and the glorious Spicy Chicken McDeluxe je tadi. Yeah, I know. Pity. Away from family, macam tulah nasib. Nasi nasi tu semua balik hometown baru boleh dapat. Ecece. Mengada! :p

Well, yesterday my friends and I went for our regular tea-time after the class ended. We were, as usual, hanging out at Auntie Cendol's place. Maklum lah, just to have my cendol for the last time before the fasting month starts kan. Macam biasa, cendol was being attacked. After my second bowl, I gave the Auntie a 'cendol-satu-lagi' gesture. She had this long smile on her face which I kinda knew its meaning. Haha. Then, suddenly a huge bowl was placed right in front of my eyes. My friends and I were in awe. There's this red color shaved ice with some 'gula merah' being poured on top of it. I was like "Err.. I order cendol biasa, Auntie. Ini orang lain punya kot," whilst applying the 'alamak' expression on my face.

"Cuba dulu. Ini ais kepal. You hari-hari minum cendol, cuba lain pulak lah." The Auntie Cendol suddenly said that line to me and walked away with her pleasant smile. All of my friends went "Ooooo.. Your cendol has got a competition, Azrin!" "Habislah you!"

Yeah.. Friends.. =P

With some friends who were still can't get their eyes off me and the ais kepal, I spooned the attractive looking snowball nervously. The tongue started to be a judge. Fuyoh! Ais kepal. Ais kepal. Ais kepal. Yummaaayyyyhhhh!!!! The girlfriends of mine too, became the unofficial tasters. Sibuk je. Haha. And they liked it as well. Ended up all of them ordered a bowl each, for themselves. Ceh.

That Auntie Cendol asked me "Ha.. Sedap tak ais kepal tu?" "Next time mau cendol ka, mau ais kepal?"

I was like "Err.. Dua-dua lah Auntie." She laughed.

Haiyo.. Such a competition to my cendol lah you, ais kepal!

Cendol?

Ais kepal?

It's not gonna be that easy to decide on which to have next time. :(

Happy Puasa!

Esok puasa! Yay!

Happy fasting, everyone! :D

*Bye cendol.. Haha..

The Cendol's Enemy

'Mereka' berwarna-warni

Saling tak tumpah macam pelangi

Tak busuk dan tak wangi

Rupa pun tak-lah berseri

Entah

Mungkin saja mengaburi

Mata tertarik, tidak di hati

Otak mencongak berkali-kali

Patutkah 'mereka' diterima lagi?

Ah! Tekak kebas menjadi-jadi

Lidah kelu bagai dah lali

Entah

Apakan daya kalau begini

Tiada guna mengelak, berlari

Sakit badan tanggung sendiri

Telan saja 'mereka' berbiji

Mudah-mudahan pulih kembali

Bersamamu cendol di kemudian hari!

BIG HI, everyone! :)

It's been a long while since I last wrote my 'typical-konon-perasan-A.Samad Said' kind of poem. Haha. Reminds me of my previous poem/gurindam/sajak/pantun/orwhateveryouwannacallit. How I've retired from all these, it seems.. *sigh*

I hate ubat! Seriously. But I've no choice but to consume them for these past few days. Lost my voice yesterday. Kelakar je. Tak dengar langsung satu patah perkataan when I uttered. Ibu was like "Ah? Ah? Tak dengar kakak cakap apa? Ah? Apa dia?" when we talked over the phone. It was a very frustrating moment that made me cried all day. Gosh! Sucha crybaby, kan? Haish.. Perhaps, saki baki jerebu hari tu that's giving me all these demam, selsema, batuk-macam-apa-entah and nose bleeding. Haa hambik sekali doktor kasi ubat yang kalau dikira-kira, boleh agih-agih satu kampung. Lepas tu, siap cakap, "Haa.. ni mesti makan ais banyak sangat ni?" Eleh. Saja je doktor tu! Sengaja tak nak bagi makan cendol dan minum teh ais lah tu. Huh, lepas ni kita jangan berjumpa lagi! Eceh! *hentak-kaki-konon-mengade-perasan-innocent-macam-budak-kecik*

*Fine! Let me have those meds! :'(

The 'Gebu' Jerebu

Salam. Hello.

Anyone.

Haha.

Hopefully things are doing well, yeah? I mean, besides today's 'challenging' weather. Haiyo! I think I'm gonna need an oxygen tank, a huge one perhaps. My throat and my chest are killing me now. They seem to be clogged. My respiratory system isn't at its best state. Face masks are becoming my BFF now. Feel like a pro surgeon walking around. Haha. I wish I could pull off that 'look' with all these batuk and hingus happening around like nobody's business. Hope you guys aren't experiencing these things. Unlike me. :'(

Btw, in order to avoid ourselves from being 'fully conquered' by this terrible condition, yes the haze, let's not forget to drink lots and lots of water. Plain one okay, not some cendol or teh ais (macam 'orang' tu, ehem..). Put on a face mask when you're doing any outdoor activity. Ala, murah je, sekeping tak sampai pun seringgit. Alahai, beli cendol boleh, takkan face mask 'sechoe't' tu pun tak mau? Ewah!

Just a gentle reminder. For myself and you. And you. You, you over there and you. Haha. Take care people!

*It's my clogging nose that's making me blog after so maannyy years! Ceh!

Thank you!

Thank you. Really.. :')

 

2013

Glory glory Man United, and the Reds go marching on, on, on!

Cheers, everyone! Cheers!

=D

Everything Will Be Fine..

I just feel like blogging today. One random thought. Hah.

Sometimes, people can be super ignorant without even noticing that they're being one. And yes, one of those kind of people is me. It isn't something to be proud of. Just no.

Today, I went to a place where there were a lot of busy people doing their stuff. *My usual lepak-ing spot back in my hometown* Here and there. Observing the live scenarios while spooning my sweet, cold cendol, I had a mixed feelings. Just like the cendol. It's sweet, creamy, yet its coldness revived your taste buds. Just perfect to describe how I felt at that moment.

An old uncle without slippers walked from a table to another. He greeted each person with a weak smile. His stained shirt looked dull. I noticed that one of his fingers was missing. My eyes were 'clothed' with my nerdy specs, so I was pretty sure that he only had 4 fingers. I refused to think further on where that finger went missing. I did not dare to. I pushed away my cendol bowl. He then continued his little journey. Leaving each table empty-handed. I just can't take my eyes off him. Those people who refused him, were barely even looked at him! Gosh! People can be that 'nice' sometimes, ey? I waited for him to turn to my table. But he didn't. He sat near the dirty stairs with an empty stare. Ah! I can't stand this anymore! Took out a green and a few blue notes from my pocket. Walked slowly towards him and.. "Uncle, tadi duit you jatuh." He looked at my hand. Then my face. "Ya, duit you, Uncle. Tadi jatuh kat sana." I pointed at err.. some random spot, I think. He held my hand with that weak smile. I nodded my head to tell him that I was telling him the truth. He looked confident this time and slowly took the notes out of my hand. "Xie xie. Xie xie." He walked. Weak but happy steps, I saw. Then, there was like a river in my eyes. Ish, Azrin!

"Ah. Enough already. Quit the emo part. Let's eat another bowl of cendol, shall we?" An energetic version of me shouted from within.

Another bowl? Yes, why not! All smiles now.

Then there was a bunch of young school boys, with their sweaty uniforms and rusty pairs of shoes. They laughed, giggled and screamed hysterically among each other while waiting for the Auntie Cendol to prepare their Sirap, Cendol Kosong, Ais Kacang and Soya. The Auntie Cendol suddenly chuckled upon a silly joke told by one of the boys. "Jangan nak cuba bodek Auntie hari ni ya. Semalam kan dah kasi free ais kacang," said that Auntie. The boys can't stop giggling and laughing. But this time, It wasn't loud at all. Almost no sound. No wonder. The Sirap, Cendol Kosong, Ais Kacang and Soya were already swimming in their mouths. "Tak apalah Auntie. Auntie baik. Nanti kitorang ada duit, kita bayar eh?" one of the boys finally answered the Auntie Cendol. "Kita balik dulu eh, Auntie. Kejap lagi ada 'koko' (kokurikulum). Terima kasih, Auntie. Bye!" And the whole bunch disappeared. Leaving the Auntie Cendol who sent them with a smile.

Hang on! They just left? Without paying the Auntie Cendol a cent for the Sirap, Cendol Kosong, Ais Kacang and Soya? Better yet, she's smiling now?

A few minutes later..

I approached her to pay my 2 bowls of cendol. "Cendol extra kacang 2. Berapa Auntie?" I took my wallet out. "Macam biasa. Biasa. 2 ringgit, amoi." She smiled. Again. "Thank you, Auntie. Cendol Auntie sedap!" With my typical 'gedik' tone, I sincerely complimented her. "Hari-hari you datang makan cendol sini, you tak boring ke amoi?" she asked me. "No-lah. Mana ada boring, Auntie."

"She won't say no to cendol, Auntie! Never!" A loud voice came from behind me. Oh! It was Sue, a good friend of mine. The Auntie Cendol laughed a little as a sign that she too agreed with my friend's statement. Ish, Sue ni! "Auntie, kenapa budak-budak sekolah tadi minum sini tada bayar you punya? Itu macam okay ka?" Sue asked her. Hey, that was my question! Never mind.. Sue and I waited for her answer.

"Tak apalah. Diorang sekolah lagi. Ada duit, bayarlah. Takda duit nak bayar, takkan tamau kasi diorang minum. Air saja, adik. Bukan emas." Hah! I saw Sue gulped. The Auntie looked so selamba or shall I say sincere when she said that. I felt warm inside.

While driving back home, a question popped out from my head; how terrible a human can be and how noble a human can be? To what extent should we as imperfect human beings, perfect our imperfections. Ignorance, arrogance, selfishness, greediness, and what not are everywhere. The tendency to have them is super high. But, I believe that we can be what we choose to be. And the choice is ultimately ours.

Living life gets difficult to do, at times don't you think? Silly question, cik kak! Haha.

InsyaAllah, everything will be fine. May Allah bless us all.

;)

Oh My..

(Above: Just my 2 cents photo. Haha.)

Oh my my my.. Goodness me! It has been ages, it seems! (*covering face)

Hey guys. How are things going on? Everything's good ey? :)

Again, I just can't believe the fact that I actually own a blog! And yes, it has been amazingly and wonderfully updated abandoned! Ish.

I've got to admit, I probably would've forgotten how to blog actually. The 'kepoh-chi-blogger' in me is gone. Like, really really gone! :(

Anyway, things are going fine here. Thank Allah for that. I'm venturing, trying and exploring loads of new stuffs everyday. Yet, old habits / practices can't just disappear within a day, right? I am still a proud cendol-ian, teh ais monster and what not. Y'know me, kan. Pfft.

Btw, are we (ManU) leading now? Hehe. Well, I dare not consider myself a devoted ManU fan anymore. Argh! Miss the good old days. I guess, my alter-ego (Ferguson) has retired sooner than I thought. Now, if you would ask me who Nemanja Vidic is, I might shake my head as a signal of 'What's that? A detergent's brand or something?' It's depressing, I know. Can this village have an Astro kuali or at least, a TV?! Aiyo.

Won't promise that I'll update you daily, dear Blogxygen but believe me, I'll try not to forget the fact that I have you, my blog! Haha. See you guys soon yeah! Hugs! ;)

It's OFFICIAL!

Hek eleh. Title post macam apa je. Plus with this 'smashing' pic, haish.. I'm drooling now! People may think that tuan punya blog just purchased it! Aahh.. Wish it was real, though. :P

Hey, anyway before I go any further, a big 'HI' and 'SALAM' to y'all. Wish you guys well yeah! (*Well.. I mean, if there was somebody 'sesat' here for real-lah, kan. Hehe.) Fuh.. Lama gila kot tak jenguk blog sendiri. Kalau dah tuan punya blog pun tak visit blog sendiri, apatah lagi orang lain, right? Huhu. Been busy with loads of stuff and what not. Been here and there. Done this and that. Well, let's just say that I'm too lazy to pour 'em all here, ey? I think I should just retire. Retiring as a blogger of my own abandoned blog. Argh.. I think I already did. Somehow. =/

Well, I must say that leading life as a student may not be as simple as gulping down a big bowl of cendol. (*Well, at least eating a HUGE bowl is an easy task for me, though. Ceh.) Away from home. Away from your best bed and pillows. Away from the couch that has always been a victim of 'violence' whenever I watch my ManU games. Away from ibu's epic cooking. Away from teh ais mamak favorite. Gosh! The 'away-from-list' just won't end, wouldn't it?

But, how or when will you start missing home and all these things when you're not away from any of them, kan? Cewah cewah cewah.. Konon nak try jadi the-positive-Oprah. Hmm, that's what I told myself-lah, just to feel better. At least. For a tiny bit. Ehem. :|

Anyway, a lovely cousin sister of mine just got married. Aaww.. May happiness be with them, always. And yes, we all went to Johor for the kenduri. Best gila. Was in-charge for the 'bunga pahar' or some people call it as 'bunga telur'. Ceh, saja I nak show-off konon tau buat bunga telur. Hehe. Weddings are fun, I think. I mean, when it comes to gathering with family, relatives part-lah! Jangan nak gatal, Azrin! Betul! Pergi wedding memang fun. Sebab apa? Hey.. Dapat makan nasi minyak, nasi beriani, nasi color2, eh.. Yelah, sebab color dia bukan putih dan orang tak panggil tu nasi putih. Ceh. Lepas tu dapat makan tapai manis. Makan cake pengantin walaupun tak makan style suap-menyuap tu. Makan lauk itu. Makan lauk ini. Yes, perhaps you guys may think, "Weh, dari tadi makan, makan, makan. Takde kerja lain ke?" (*Ala let's just admit, kak, bang, adik, makcik, pakcik semua.. 'MAKAN' is one of the main purposes when you're at a wedding tau. Betul. Ehem.. According to my law-lah. Haha.) Yang paling best, bila kita dapat bunga telur banyak2, sebab? Sebab, bila kita balik rumah, kita kena straight masuk dapur, lepas tu kita ambik kicap, dan tuang kat telur rebus yang dapat tadi tu, haa, lepas tu.. apalagi! Goodness me! I can't believe I just taught you guys such lesson! Tak senonoh betul. Don't try this at other people's home, try at your own, kay. Hehe. :p

Opsy.. Looks like I've been 'nagging' for hours now. Time to get going. Will see you guys when I wake up at the 'correct' side of the bed, like I did this morning, which particularly or magically made me visit my own blog. Ish ish ish..

Hope all is well. Take care, people! :)

I'm Everything I Am..

"I'm everything I am, because you loved me.." Celine Dion

I miss home! :'(